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Welcome back to BEautifullyODD!
A moment of truth: this blog is a real account of me building what ever it is this may lead to (About). And for some reason, this time around, I feel a bit more vulnerable.
It’s taken a long time to get back to this point in my life and feel that I could confidently pursue it. I tend to hate the word vulnerable. You hear that word used a lot in the love department. And I admit, I wasn’t expecting to feel this way. I’m like… my love life is already on the line, not my art too.
But I guess this time around it feels like there is so much at risk. Not in proving anything to anyone, not in getting likes, not for fame, nor money. But for all the tears I’ve cried, for all the heart ache, the pain, for peace, and spiritual healing. And mainly, because I have told my self I couldn’t.
And yet… Nothing prepares you for launching your blog and realizing that no one cares; a few do and you love them dearly. I knew this the first time around, but I couldn’t help but feel even more on my own. Exposed. Right away I realized that I can’t waste my time keeping tabs on all the analytics. I need to be focused on the content.
Where this goes, is dependent on how much work and effort I decide to spill into it. Not how many likes and followers I can get. I’d rather not stress on that anyhow. If you plan to be successful, it’s the first thing you need to get over.
Stay tuned for ArtBooks VS SketchBooks! Which side are you on? How many sketch / art books do you keep on rotation and is there a difference between the two?
So… as you all know… My ship has sailed. Now the ship almost sank but I fixed the leak and then I had to have my doubt and fear walk the plank. But though the ship left the harbor… and I knew where it was going… I didn’t have the map to get there. I misplaced it when I came aboard.
But now that I have found the map… I’ve come to realize a few things…
1. A plan: I was listening to Joel Osteen the other day and he was saying you gotta to have a plan. Goals with out plans become ineffective. We have to make an effort in order to get to the finish line. “If you come up with a plan, God will direct your steps.” So, with that said I have been working on a schedule that will help me not only stay focused but meet my short term goals. And as Twyla Tharp says… us creative people have to form habitual habits in order to stay committed to the dream. (something like that)
2. Sometimes I feel like shit and I don’t want to do anything… but Joyce Myer said that if you start doing what you know is right then your feelings will catch up with it. I believe it. When we feel like we can’t, or that we don’t wish to continue pushing on… we tend to want to give up… but there is that little needle in the haystack that says… get up! We have to not ignore it and find the strength to persevere. 3. My determination: well… I knew I had to graduate with my AA in photography. I couldn’t walk away from it. But, now that I’m not going to school… what is going to motivate me? I don’t have a professor telling me what to do, I don’t have my conscious telling me that I have to pass this class so that I can achieve step 1, 2 & 3. I want to start a business. I am not committed to attend class, I am not obligated to write a research paper. But I am determined to achieve my goal. So… by implementing a plan I am now obligated… and though I have to be completely accountable for my actions… my dream is still there. It has not died because I’m not attending school.
4. Life… however hard is so very beautifullyODD. People are swarming around sayin the world is going to end this date and this date. But I believe that life is beautiful… I believe that the human race has hope… I believe that God… hears me… and because of that… I am going to give it my best till the end of time… “you gotta dance like nobody’s watchin, dream like you will live forever, live like you’re going to die tomorrow and love like it’s never going to hurt.” ~Meme Grifsters In the end… this is the beginning of my wildest dreams. There is much to do. More than I can even begin to comprehend. And I am more than willing to fight for it.
So whats first… (exhale) I have projects to finish… one day at a time.. things to learn… one day at a time… and hope that is never dying.
much love to you all… chase your dreams… AND NEVER, GIVE UP!