“There is no point fighting against the challenges of life or trying to avoid or deny them. They are there, and if the seed is to become the flower we must go through them. Be courageous enough to grow into the flower you are meant to be.” Osho
In times of doubt, the simplest phrases and quotes can resurge our commitment. Trust that by doing what you love, you’ll not only get to where you need to go, but you’ll also enjoy the journey. Don’t give up, push pass, practice and grow. ♡
When somebody thinks they can break you…. lol.
Today was amazing. I pretty much went on an interview that I won’t deny, I tanked. But honestly… the best part was changing clothes in the car like a g. For real. It reminded me of the days, running back and forth to college and work when I first graduated from hs. Hustling to chase my dreams.
When you are determined enough to change in the car, come out slaying and feeling extremely confident… it’s perfect. To be real, they advertised for a graphic designer but really wanted someone who had tons of experience with printing, which I don’t have. But hey, it was fun.
And as much as I need to learn the printing side of things, I’m focusing on…
But even then. The reminder that I’m still grinding, slaying, never giving up, despite a few pebbles in my shoe; well hey… still unstoppable.
The quote that immediately comes to mind is, “If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.”
Well I’ve got a lot of plans. Ideas too. There are tons of things I want to do and accomplish and this is the year I want to make it happen. I guess I’m so eager because I spent the last two years flaying about quite aimlessly and barely made it out alive (exaggerating).
So this year I am determined to take action and to create habitually. Which inspired me before the year was over to sit down and choose a few projects to work on and determine how and what it would take to achieve these goals.
It wasn’t just the how but when? How am I going to dedicate the time to achieve these goals? As the new year ticks away, I am more than anxious to get to work. I have a few last-minute things to clear up by this weekend and it will be time to get to work.
But as I finish up around the house, resetting my office area, cleaning, folding laundry and purging, I can’t help but feel anxious. I wonder, are my plans inline with God. I have this tendency to be the “Jill” of all trades, which means I love to dabble and enjoy all aspects of creativity. But as I sit down to make these plans I wonder if they are achievable. The last thing I want to do is set myself up to fail.
And that is why I have to remember to take time to breathe and enjoy the moment, to be present in the here and now. To ask myself, what is it that I can do now. I may not be able to plan out the whole year and I don’t want to; Where is the spontaneity in that. But I do want to hold my self accountable and be mindful as I pursue my projects.
Lisa Nichols has this saying that success doesn’t happen over night, that it’s a bunch of tiny pin hole efforts that add up. So if God willing, with his guidance and hard work… I can have hope that it’s all possible.
A pic of the planner I purchased… exhale… I am following my excitement, as Elizabeth Gilbert says to do and I trust her opinion. I was intimidated, hence the article, but I’m eager and full of hope, determined and scared. Silly, I know… Planners are effective tools and I’m hoping it will not only hold me accountable but help me organize and achieve my goals!
“The blank space can be humbling… It’s my job. It’s also my calling. Bottom line: Filling this empty space constitutes my identity.”
Twyla Tharp, “The Creative Habit: Learn It and Use It For Life”.
I’m so behind. The fact that I haven’t kept my word about posting is annoying. But the pressure isn’t helping me create, I figure I just need to let it flow naturally. Exhale….
Seems like there is constantly something to do and I must admit the overwhelming pressure has been eating at me. From wanting a new job to finishing the unpacking process and to getting back to work on my art; my only sign of hope is to Keep Moving Forward.
I found the note-book at Target for 3 bucks and instantly wanted it when I realized the inside was filled with graph paper. I have this weird obsession with notebooks and glad I took the time last night to fill its pages. No matter how busy I am, filling a page with decopage helps realign my hope and spirit and put my worries at ease.
Everything is honestly good, I’m unbelievably blessed and full of hope. Just slightly impatient. I want it all now. But things don’t happen over night… And this is about my communion with art.
Stay BEautifullyODD and Keep Moving Forward
Every Monday for me is a reminder of how much I didn’t accomplish during the weekend. It’s a drag to have to get up and go to your full-time job, that you know you are beyond blessed in even having in the first place, but let’s be honest… hate.
And though my weekends have been enjoyably more productive… I still want so much more to be done… organized… accomplished. And when I have to stop and go to my job… I feel so panicked. It’s frustrating. And my brain doesn’t turn off when I go to work: it doesn’t stop you from having to keep in contact with clients or to jot down a few notes and consume your breaks with any thing related to art to help keep you sane.
Honestly every second sucks. lol. I know, I’m working on that but until then… PATIENCE is what I’m calling on.
The patience to do my mind numbing job so that I can pay for my rent. (i love home)
The patience to not feel like everything has to be done and organized or the need to have tons of content on standby.
The patience to let all of this unfold in its own time.
To be patient with my self. To be patient with others.
To be patient with the universe because I know everything is coming together.
Just a friendly reminder as the men I’ve heard joking around about this… don’t really seem to be joking. So… don’t forget… some chicks still slash tires and much more…. Just saying…